The Terrible Twos and Moving Right Along

Rowan's not quite 2 but I can start to see what people are talking about with the tantrums and the attitudes. She's been testing our boundaries for about 6 months now and exerting her own individuality. I'm sure it will get more prevalent as we approach 2 and 3 years old, by that time she'll be able to communicate better and understand more and hopefully that will die down. Until she's a teenager anyway.



So not much more to say about that, I just took a bunch of pictures last night and wanted to get one or two of them up. I'm also mentioning that this site is growing to the point that one page hit per day and Geocities shuts it down, so I'm planning on moving all to my comic book page in a arduous, painfull process that may involve dissolving this page altogether and starting over. I'm going to keep all the pictures of course, they being a great chronicle of Rowan's growing up, but there's just too much here, it's too spread out, and it's too big for a free site anymore. There may not be room over on the comics page either, but I'll have to test that out. I honestly don't know how many people visit here so it's hard to take that into account, whether to foot the bill for another page or not.



With that being said, I'm also going to try an reinstate some more current entries into AutoNeurotica and the Life In Austin section. Cheryl and I haven't done a whole lot that requires many updates, the holidays and family responsibilites sapping our play funds (and frankly, pictures and stories of us going to the movies probably isn't going to thrill audiences) so while I'll try to keep some content in there, don't expect it all to be Pulitzer material. And the teacher section is a slow bit too, I haven't had anything from The Teacher in a while, but that will also be moving over. I'm sure the page will get a new look, new navigation, new everything. I'm even considering doing a weekly comic strip about something. I was thinking either Parenting, Sci-Fi geekness, Comic Book geekness, Tech Support jobs or all of the above. I don't have the time, manpower or funds to make this a hot, topic rich, all in one search engine, trivia, webhosting, wallpaper, news feed kinda site, but I try to keep it entertaining. So, look for some changes and I promise to keep it updated here.

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Simmah down nah.

So I'm going to turn 30 this year, in about 5 months. Things have started to creep around my head as this stigmatic age approaches, and it's not just my hairline. I'm starting to compare myself to my parents more and more. Before it was just I thought I had sounded like my mom or said something like my dad, but lately it's more esoteric. I've started wondering what they were thinking when they were my age, how evolved were they mentally and emotionally and socially. I mean, I'm 29 and I watch Dragonball Z and collect Star Wars Lego sets and play video games. Was my dad doing things like this in 1984? I know there weren't the video games back then like today, but surely there was Saturday morning cartoons.

I think the big thrust of this is understanding myself as a grown up but with this feeling mentally of a child. It's both a benefit and a detriment to be in this flux state, to be old and have the experience, but still "young at heart" and not use your wisdom as you should. I don't like worrying about 401ks and insurance and how much equity is in my house and what tax bracket I'm in. I'd rather draw more and write in here and play with Rowan and go to a movie. Yes it's not fiscally wise, but who cares? I don't. I worry about it just enough to motivate me into helping Cheryl with the bills, but 2 hours later I've lost it again and I'm looking for the next escape. Most of my friends are younger, now that I've moved to Texas. When I was in Colorado, I was among the younger members of the group. So this age is starting to wear me around the edges and I'm starting not to look good.

It will repeat itself I'm sure when Rowan is my or Cheryl's age. She'll compare herself to us, just as we do now. Cheryl is always asking if she's acting like her parents, and it's always in a negative way. I do the same thing, her parents do the same thing. No one wants to turn out like their parents, even though their folks might be good people. There are a lot of qualities I'd like from my parents, but all you can end up seeing is the negativity. So just like me, Rowan will be worried that she'll grow up with a temper and avoidance of conflict issues, or control issues, depending on what parent she emulates more. Hopefully she'll grasp early that I'm just as mortal and fallible as any other human and she'll just love me for me no matter how many times I've replayed Star Wars X-Wing Alliance.